hmmm............this whole tagged thing..........why not.........i'm bored.


1. my middle name is Jean

2. I have gone to more than one lan over the summer

3. I secretly put flowers on people's doorstep, ring the doorknob, and run away.

4. I think religions are interesting.

5. I want to go to college in Iowa

6. I'm aweful at writting.

7. I cry over silly things

8. I hate mexican food

9. I have to see a dermatologist

10. I hate people like me.

11. I'm aweful at most things i try.

12. I love fireflys

13. I never want to have kids

14. I'm fickle as hell

15. I secretly love camping.........but tell everyone I hate it becuase i like to be forced to do things i like.

16. I'm a neat freek

17. I shouldnt' be taking half the classes i am.

18. I love bubbles

19. I always meet people in interesting ways.

20. I often trust complete strangers *and like them more* than people i have known for a while.

what the crap is with me randomly having a membership.

hey all.



I rock. I didn't get a lifeguarding job. nor will I, I will apply at denny's and arby's and if that doesn't work then I don't nkow where else. whrever suits my fancy I supose. anyway. the point is next year I can be a lifeguard.

my written drive test is tommarow. ha. I feel sorry for everyone.


I have a new boyfriend. and he flippin rocks. his name is wes and he is like the coolest person ever. he is a tech dude and a lifeguard (hahaha. steryotype.) and he is freeking hott. if any of you know him and see him, then tell him I said so. as if I am not a distraction enough, he needs to be remined.


anyway. I am going to silverwood tommarow. fun for me. I am looking forward to wearing my new swimsuit.

well I should get going, for any of you who care about my art. sorry I havent done anything. been really busy.

-lots-o-luv-

-irak

hahhahah. tehre is a footer. I win.

boo it is I again.


it is of corse me who makes the disisions that most hurt the ones I love. why. I love making people happy. but I hurt everyone sooo much. all well. I will lable it as a disease and be done with it


speaking of thing that ruin lives. guys. they are annoying. they are warm and cuddly and taste good with jelly (kidding by the way) you can't let them be becuase they are so awesome. but they are so tiresome. in particular guys who have crushes on you/ you have on them. errrrr. they should all be shiped to mars and we should have one day a year where the guys and girls meet up and hang out. it would be cool.


recent news. kari HATES driving the stick shift at night. on the hiway. not fun. don't care what you say.


I will now go eat your mother.

goodbye forever loosers.


-lots-o-luv-

-ira

I watched the sky go from afternoon blinding to rain to the darkness of night as the sun went down. My mom thinks there is something wrong with me. There is of course, but nothing more than normal. I just need time to reflect every once in a while and acctually let my emotions catch up to me. I havent for the last two years, and a lot has happend. so I watched the sky change and doubted reality. It was fun. Though I couldn't do in more than once every two years.

I think tommorow I will go for a run. Not the usual run. The run where you get up an hour early and everyone wonders where you were. Then, when you walk in the house, people yell at you. Exept it won't happen like that, I won't be missed. it will be exhillerating.

people wear too many masks. they play too many parts, there just aren't that many roles.

anyway, earlier today I cleaned Dea's house and went to a play, it was alright. and now that I know where I stand in life, I shall run forward unabashed.


oh yeah, I also ran in the rain, it was nice. being able to sit in the rain, safe secure, knowing that I could go inside and get a blanket or a new change of cloths, but I didn't. I just felt the rain fall.

I hate being ill, and throwing up. but I do it (trow up) more than anyone I know, maybe somethings wrong with me. but anyway I am contemplating eating something, I am so week and hungrey I can't stand up or move my arms really, so I should probubly eat something, but that would just irratate my tummy. well, that is why kari wasn't at school today, Friday. but gues what, it is spring break, yay it will be fun. I thik I will go eat some ice cream and go to bed.


night night.

-irak